Original Song: Withdrawal

It’s been a while, friends.

I honestly thought I’d rock up here for the first time in a long time with a huge update in tow, but it appears that one of my songs has grown wings and needs to be released into the wild instead…

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I wrote this song a few years ago now – I’d have to check exactly when, because the pandemic has rather concertina’d time into strange shapes that don’t quite match perception any more.

Suffice to say, I wrote it after we returned to our homeland, and its cadence felt strangely familiar; I worried that it sounded like another singer’s song, and I couldn’t quite shake this odd feeling about it. So it sat for some time, unsure and unloved, in my stacked songwriting book, while the pages around it became populated with scribbles, symbolism, and other (more beloved, less ambiguous) songs. When that notebook became full, another took its place, and this song was left to sleep between the long-unscanned pages, likely never to find its place.

A little while ago, I leafed through that old songbook, and decided to play it again. It suddenly became clear that it was all mine, of me, and that the strange cloud that had hung over the song was just because it wasn’t the right time yet.

It is now.

Now that I’ve learned how to use a DAW well enough to write and arrange the score for my video game (I’m an indie dev these days), now that I have the knowledge I needed to make this song sound more like it sounded in my head when I wrote it. I’m no producer, or sound technician, but I’m proud of how it came together. In time, I may remix and remake it in a new form…but for now?

For now, here’s my Imperfection Project version of a song called Withdrawal – it’s a break from the norm, because it’s just the audio accompanied by crashing waves, but that feels right for this song, for right now.

Maybe soon I’ll finish writing that big update on where I’ve been. For now, know that I’m better than I’ve ever been.

Love always,

Fay

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